I can't believed I cried again, I felt like a baby again. Someone wiping your tears away, telling you don't cry. It felt good somehow at least I don't have to clean it by myself. School sucked today somehow, my classmates seem to be avoiding me. Oh well, I don't even know what I done wrong. And plus my laptop spoiled, made it even worse. I still feel lost, I feel that I don't have friends. Tomorrow is Friday, I realised that I don't even have anyone. I don't really feel like seeing anybody besides H, A, and T. Everybody is busy with family, friends and work. Maybe I should get a job too so that I won't be here being so emotional and pyschotic. After 20 days not seeing him, I thought I won't be seeing him for months. Who knows, I was unprepared stepping into Classic. You feel like as though your soul is not here and you just get so flustered that you just keep shaking. Why did he just have to appear after so long?